My mom…

I love my mom, but there are times when I wish that she would just either get on the ball about things or let me do them. I have been counting on her to plan my baby shower for months now. She always seems to have one excuse or another about why she hasn’t set a date. This time it is that she needs to wait at least until early next week to decide because my dad’s girlfriend (parents divorced a long time ago) needs to pick what dates the Girl Scouts are holding their cookie sales or something to that effect. I just kind of giggled but really I am to the point of where I will just do it myself. It is really annoying. Oh well what can you do. She is my mom, and I love her….

I hate the hospital!!!

I just got home from the hospital because I started having really bad contractions and was unable to take my contraction medication because my heart rate was over 100.

So I called my Dr. to ask what I should do because I was having contractions and my heart rate was about 130 bpm. After waiting on hold for like 10 minutes the nurse came back on the line and said that she “Would have to call me back.” So since I was picking my friend Lori up from the Main Hospital I figured that I would sit in the parking lot and wait on the off chance that they might want to see me. So about 15 minutes later she called me back and told me that they wanted to see me. “What a shocker” So while on the phone with the nurse they said that they couldn’t give me the other medication with our seeing me. Well that made sense so I went and parked in the parkade and made the like 1/4 mile walk to the Birthing Center. (That is where my Dr. Office is since I am a high risk pregnancy) It was raining and very nasty so I was in a grouchy mood because now not only was I having contractions, my heart was pounding, and now to top it off I was wet and cold…. Great.

I get in there with Lori and Ona and get all registered and checked in. A process that always takes about 15 or 20 min. So now I am really hurting and getting irritated but still hopeful that they will give me the meds that I need so that I can just go home. I got in to the room and they hooked me up on the monitors to make sure that her and I are both ok. Well my heart rate was 130 which is extremely high. Hers was normal right around 150 – 160 bpm. so that is good. During the first hour that I was there I had 12 contractions. The nurse came in and told me that they were sending me home with no meds, no check of my cervix, no nothing. I thought that I was going to loose it. Never once had I seen the Dr. (who ever was on call not my regular dr) and I was still having contractions with my heart rate well above 100. I looked at the nurse and told her that I was not leaving with out at least getting checked. So she checked my cervix and said that I am dilating. Still no Doctor to be seen. I asked the nurse what I can take to stop the contractions with my heart rate. I got no answer she had to go and confer with the Doctor. OK so another hour later and tons of contractions she came back still with out the doctor and said that I just need to go home and rest. So I am dilating etc but nothing is wrong? I am only 31 weeks and 4 days along mind you so that can’t be right. Oh and to top it all off the nurse told me that the Dr. told her that the meds that I do take don’t work and they are pointless. So I was extremely irritated now because they do help. They stop the contraction and help me to feel better. Needless to say they discharged me with absolutely no new information and no meds. (the reason that I went in, in the first place)

So now I am sitting at home watching my daughter make a horrible mess with her dinner and refuse to eat. I still hurt and have no answers for what I need to do. GRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to stop hurting. I feel bad because I just feel like I can’t win, and I am inadvertently taking it out on my poor husband. Poor thing. (I mean it)

Wow I guess I can stop ranting now because I got it all out there now. It was just so frustrating. I would have been better off to stay home….

Why did I want another baby?

Why did I want another baby? Well I know why but I think that I must have forgotten what it was like being pregnant. I am miserable today again just like every other day it seems. I think that I am getting what my husband has had illness wise that is. Please NO!!!!!!!! I am not sure that I can deal with that too.

All night last night I was having contractions but I couldn’t take my contraction medication because my heart rate was so elevated. The meds make me so jittery and almost paranoid. My doctor told me not to take them if my heart rate is over 100 because it elevates the heart rate and could potentially cause a heart attack. Yeah and that is what I need. So last night I was laying in bed not moving at all so as to try and get my body to relax, but I think that my body was getting more irritated. So I was laying there crying having contractions staring at my medication knowing that I can’t take it. Oh it was awful.

So I wake up this morning and my tummy is so sore. Like I just did a couple hundred crunches or sit ups. I am still having intermittent contractions but my heart rate is still elevated. Oh what do I do at this point.

Things that I have tried this morning none of which worked

  • Laying on my side
  • Eating something warm
  • Eating something cold
  • Drinking something

But to my dismay nothing has worked this morning.

Well I am going to go for the moment and get ready to leave I have a friend that needs a ride to the Dr. office in a few. Thanks for reading. I hope that you like the new wordpress theme.

Sleep. Precious Sleep.

Why is it that when I really need the sleep and have the time to sleep that no one will leave me alone? I am so run down and tired. My husband is sick. My cats are driving me crazy running all over the house. My father in law is calling me driving me nuts.

I do feel really bad for my husband though. He has had the worst fever and has been unable to eat hardly anything. But then to top it off with him he has to get up extra early in the morning and take his sister to work before he goes to work. I just feel so bad. I wish that there was something that I could do for him. But sadly there isn’t, it is just one of those things that has to work its self out. But boy is it nasty, all I know is that I just don’t want to get it. It is bad enough on the poor guy that my work-a-holic is coming home early and even had a few requests (which never happens ) shower, soup, Tylanol, sweats, and a nap on the couch. I have all of them ready for him and I am waiting for his usually shining face to come walking through the door.

Back to my sleep problem… I just want to get like 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I am doubting that it will happen for like another several months or even a year. I only say that because of the baby that is on the way. Even though she is one of the main reasons that I am not sleeping now. She bumps and kicks all night. I think that her sleep cycle is off at the moment. I wish that she would get on track soon, this lack of sleep thing is killing me or making me cranky at the very least.

My cats are driving me insane as well. I think that they have a hidden stash of kitty crack some where. Both of my cats have been bouncing off of the walls, windows, doors, people what ever they can run in to, all morning. My husband said that they were doing it when he left for work and they are still having bouts of energy that is at times painful. I got run over earlier. They are so lucky that I love them especially since Max (the small of the two cats that I have) has been stealing my fruit this morning. It started with a piece of banana, then he took some grapes and now he is hording the raisins. How weird is that?

Well I think I have complained enough at the moment. Hubby is home so maybe I will get back to it later. Esp since I am trying to find a good Word Press theme for my blog. I didn’t realize how hard it was to find one that I am really excited about.

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First. Blog post. Ever.

This is my first post!!!!

I am so excited. Welcome to my blog. I have absolutely no idea what I am doing but I am managing to do it all on my own at the moment. I am so proud!!

My husband has a blog and all that good stuff and I usually just use his if I have something that I need to say. But I had mentioned casually that I would be interested in doing one and this is what he presented me with this evening. I am just so excited…

I hadn’t ever really thought about creating a blog until I discovered another womans blog and she asked me why I didn’t have one. Well I didn’t have a good answer… (kinda felt dumb to tell you the truth for not having an intelligent answer or at least a snappy comeback lol) But here is a link to her blog I am so grateful for her asking me that because I don’t think that I would have ever taken the initiative to do it on my own. So thank you for the push in the right direction.
I never would have found her blog had it not been for this wonderful thing that my husband set me up with called Stumble Upon. Now I am absolutely addicted to it and I can’t wait for updates.

Well Since this is my first post I guess I had better tell you a little bit about me. I am a 22 year old stay at home mom. I have a 3 year old boy named Alexander (Alex). Let me tell you he is a hand full. I am in the midst of having him tested for Autism so things are interesting to say the least. But then I have a beautiful daughter Catilin. She is 16 Months old. Boy is she sweet. (Well most of the time lol) My husband is a very devoted and loving father. I don’t know how I ever managed with out him. I am hoping that I never have to find out what I would do with out him again. Shaun (my hubby) is a web developer and works very hard creating websites, writing software, and what ever else it is that he does. I get confused. But that I blame on the pregnancy. 🙂

I didn’t realize that it was so late. Wow I have to go to bed or I will never get up in the morning. Have a good one…