Next month my husband Shaun and I will have been officially married for one year. March 18th, 2007 was our wedding day. So I was looking through some pics on the computer and realized 2 things.
First that I don’t have a single picture of myself on my own website and two that I have never mentioned my wedding or anything like that. So I thought that I would put a few pictures up. I also found a good one of my grandpa that I just lost at my wedding so I am going to put that one up as well.
I thought that this was a really neat pic considering that who ever took it got us in the mirror as well.
Me and my dad. Believe it or not he is in a good mood at this point.
I like my daddy can you tell?
Me and Shaun just after the “I do’s” I am finally a Kester and so excited about it.
Just one of me in my red and white dress. I really loved it well I still do. Too bad I probably will never be a size 5 again.
I just liked this picture, and I don’t say that very often about pics of myself.
I need to blow this picture up and crop it down to size because my great grandfather is in this one and you can barely see him.
Our rings. His is a titanium band and mine (my first set on my second set already) was a white gold with a 1/2 carat floating diamond in the middle. I no longer have this set because I was having to have it re rhodiumed all of the time almost every two or three weeks. So I was spending more time with out my wedding set than I did with it. It sucked but the jewler exchanged that set for the set that I have now. I liked the first set so much better but this one I don’t worry about as much. Except that I am afraid I am going to loose my wedding set because I can’t wear it on account of being pregnant and my hands swelling or something. I have heard that lots of women have had to get their bands cut off because their hands swelled up and there was no other way to get the rings off. How terrible!!! I don’t want mine cut in half so I am opting out of wearing them. ( Just for now though. As soon as I can wear them safely again I will be all over that!!! )
I know that this was kind of a random post, I just was thinking about my hubby and our wedding and just a host of other things and this was fun for me. What I need to do is get Shaun to move the photo galleries over to my site from his, so that I don’t have to upload them one at a time. But for now this will suffice until I nag him into submission. ( What else are wives good for? 
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I realize that it has been a few days since I last posted, I have just been trying to cope and doing it very poorly. My kids know that I am upset and stressed which is making them just terrors because they don’t know what is going on. My son Alex (he’s 3) keeps asking me if I am ok and what’s wrong. I could tell him but he won’t understand so I just keep saying that mommy’s sad. I don’t think he is buying it all of the time though.
My Great-Grandmother called me yesterday and needed some company so Shaun and I packed up the kids and headed over there. I hadn’t been there yet because she seemed like she had too many people there all the time telling her what to do. (My great aunts and uncles) My grandpa is coming over from Central Oregon its about a 3 -4 hour drive in the summer so I don’t know how long it will take him tomorrow with the like 12 feet of snow on the pass but he will make it I am sure. My grandma needs to see him, in fact I am going to go up there tomorrow when they are here. I only see them once or twice in a year if that and I just feel like I need to see him. My grandma is doing about as well as I am handling all of this stuff. (which is not very well by the way) I am really upset about the fact that there will not be a service for him at his request. He is to be cremated and placed at the Willamette National Cemetary and that is it. No time to mourn as a family no celebration of life nothing. I almost feel cheated in that aspect. I don’t know maybe that is the wrong way to feel but I can’t help it, it hurts.
I have cried so much over so many things the last few days I look abused. I am almost scared to go in public with my husband because it looks like he beats me. My eyes are black and blue and all swollen from crying and it looks like he just punched me once really good. He didn’t of course he would never do that he is not that type. I have been with that type and he is definitely not it. I have had people ask me before after a night of crying if I need help or if my husband is abusive. No one seems to believe that this is just how I look after I cry, so I finally started saying yeah he beat me, what can you do. It is funny to watch their reactions.
So potty training is going really well. Alex hasn’t had an accident in several days and has been wearing underroos and the whole nine yards. I am very proud of him, I think that we are almost there. I still am putting him in a diaper at night because he doesn’t wake up, but he gets up in the morning before he comes in my room to harass me goes in the bathroom takes off his diaper goes potty then comes to roust me from my warm bed. So I think that with a little more work he will have it in no time. We even did out first outing with no diaper and it went with no accidents. I am really glad that could have been messy.
I am looking forward to my dr. appointment on Wednesday. I am so anxious about the baby. I am not sure if I am just done with the pregnancy thing. That and I am excited about not seeing Dr. Jerk that told me to get fixed. Grrr I am still rather bent about that. But what can you do he was just that a jerk. I just hope that I don’t have to see him again that could totally suck. Well it would suck because I would refuse the appointment, I don’t think that I should have to be subjected to that kind of thing esp by a Dr.
Anyway that is about how it is going in my little world over here. All stress and no play at the moment.
