I don’t know how long I can deal with this. I am stressing out because I am in pain, and I swear I am biting off everyone’s head this evening. Things that don’t normally bother me are driving me insane.
I have a three year old that is pushing ever single one of my buttons.
- He keeps getting in to my purse.
- Taking out the laces from all of our shoes.
- He hit me in the head with my own keys. (He dug in my purse took my keys and when I asked him to put them back he threw them at me and they hit me in the side of the head.)
- He grabbed my soda off the table and when I told him to put it back he threw it on my couch.
- He is allergic to chocolate so every time I turn around he has been sneaking around to get it and then vomiting everywhere.
My poor husband is so burnt out at work he wants to start his maternity leave early. I don’t think that this is a bad idea accept that what if she doesn’t come forever and he doesn’t have the time to spend with us at home when we need him. I wish that this was feasible but I am afraid that it just isn’t at this point. I almost selfishly want him home so that I don’t have to be alone while I am laboring. Is that selfish?
My husband’s best friend in the whole wide world just got into town from Tenn. for a funeral. His grandfather died so he is in town for the funeral. It will be wonderful to see him, even though I probably will not get the chance. The only free day that he is going to have is on Saturday. (The same day as my baby shower) So I am sure that I am going to miss out but what ever I am just hoping that Shaun will have the chance to get in some quality time with him. They have not seen one another in almost four years.
I just can not over come my frustrations this evening. I am in pain and everything is just pissing me off. Wow this is just getting to be too much. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone have a suggestion? or two? maybe three? I think that I am going to need all of the help that I can get.
Well thanks for listening, even though I didn’t say a whole lot I feel better.
Well the pregnancy is not that bad it is just the labor part I am having trouble with at the moment. I went to the doctor yesterday and they determined that I am in labor it is just really slow. So I am having mass amounts of contractions and they are not doing hardly anything to get her out. I feel like I am doing all this work and dealing with all of this pain for nothing at the moment.
I never really thought about getting stuck at a certain point in labor but apparently you can. That and this is the first time that I have not been induced so I don’t really know what to expect. The hospital told me that it could be a day (or less) or even a week or two. What kind of crap is that? I didn’t sign up for that. Not that I want my daughter to be born prematurely by any means considering that I am only 36 weeks, but they won’t do anything to help me get unstuck. (For fear of a malpractice suit) I understand that they are afraid that I would sue if there was something that went wrong during the delivery and it was because of the pitocin or what ever they give. Then on the other hand I am far enough along that they won’t give me anything that will stop it or slow it down either. Basically from what I have been told I am just in limbo till she decided to come out or until the 23rd when they will just get it over with.
I am not so sure that I will be able to deal with all of this until the 23rd, neither is my Dr. so he told me to walk, walk, walk , and walk some more, and hopefully that will make my body finish what it has started. Here’s hoping I have been walking so much that I can barely keep my eyes open because I am not sleeping either. (Because of the contractions) What a vicious cycle… Well I am going to try and lay down for a bit, I will keep you posted.
