I was going through the WP themes for my blog and I found that there are no holiday themes. I was looking for like a thanksgiving theme or christmas theme etc., and couldn’t find anything. I was so bummed.

I don’t know how many other people would like to change themes for holidays and things like that but I really want to. Have any of you seen anyone do this or seen any themes that I might be interested in?

Have a good one!!!!

Wow I have just been soooo super busy. I feel like I just have not been able to do anything ever. I have my kids as you know but I have been watching one of my girl friends two children and boy are they a handfull.

Brian who is 2 1/2 years old is a good kid and he gets kinda lost in the hurd most days so I feel bad, and Bobby who is 11 months old is just horrid. I don’t know how to deal with this kid. He drives me insane, I know that kids cry but dang it. I don’t think that mine do or have ever cried that much. I have tried to chalk it up to seporation anxiety etc but it is not getting any better at all. I feel like I am at a loss. So between being a relatively new mommy again, having a special needs child, and her two I am loosing it.

How do you tell a very good friend that you just can’t watch her kids anymore when you konw that she HAS to work and doesn’t have anyone else? I feel like an ass for having to tell her. I really don’t want to, but I don’t think that I am going to have another choice before long. Depressing.

On a happier note, I have been working with some horses. I am having a ball and it is keeping my even that much more busy. Soephi the horse that I am training exclusively is so pretty. She is half polish and half saddle bred, and a really nice bay ( in color). She is 2 1/2 years old, and was abused. (Very abused, beaten and starved) It is kind of sad but she is coming out of it really well I think. I have had her under saddle one time but I just don’t trust her at this point, and the last thing that I need is to hit the ground.

My husband and I at one point were planning a huge move to Texas that just didn’t go the way that we thought it should. I had no idea how hard it is to find adiquate housing in Austin. I / we were bummed that it just couldn’t work. I kind of wish that we were able to go but on the other hand I think that I would have really missed my family. I have never lived any other place than Oregon, and it is just so pretty here. If you have not been here you should come and visit sometime.

Well I am going to get back to watching Susan Lucci on Dancing with the stars. Have a good night!!!

I have been really torn about what I want to do with my life. I know that raising a family is important but it is just not completely satisfying for me. Don’t get me wrong I love my children and my husband and definately enjoy spending as much time with them as I possibly can. But I always feel that I need something that I can do for me. I don’t however mean like going to the spa or being alone for any length of time, I mean more like a career. Something that I am good at. I think that I want to be a photographer. I took some photo’s while we were out at the pond last night. Here they are and let me know what you think. I really really want your opinions.

I am really in to it. Wow but I was checking out prices of good cameras and they are super spendy. Oh well I suppose that I can use my father in law’s till I can afford to get one of my own. (If ) I can afford to get one of my own that is.

My husband and I were talking about firefox 3 today. I think that it is really neat. I have yet to download it on to my laptop but I think that I will be soon. Shaun said that the Mozilla servers crashed about 5 min to 10am this morning because so many people are downloading the new version. I must say that I love Firefox over Internet Explorer. Firefox just seems so much safer to me. Here is a screen shot of how many people have downloaded the new version right now.

That is how many people had downloaded at the moment since this morning from all over the world. That number is going up by atleast a hundred every couple of seconds.

This is how many people in the United States have uploaded so far to this point.

That is alot, basically that means that we as a country have done at least 1/3 of the downloads. Kinda neat.

So I am having this baby on Sunday! Finally…. I went to the Doctor on Wednesday and I am dilated and effaced enough to induce. I am so excited!!!!! The main reason that we are inducing (other than I am miserable) is because I am showing signs of preeclampsia. The sudden severe swelling, migraines, raising blood pressure, loss of hearing and vision. It’s horrible, and it is painful to say the least because of the swelling.

So Sunday March 23rd, 2008, at 8 am I am going to be going to the hospital and being induced. I hope that all goes well, and I don’t have to have a c-section or anything like that. I was induced with my son and I almost had to have a c- section and I was so scared and delivered normally on the operating table. So I am a little nervous about the whole thing, but it is an excited nervous.

I know that my husband is quite nervous as well. But I think that is because he has been having dreams that I have died or there is something that has happened to the baby during delivery. I must admit I too have had these kinds of dreams but as far as I have heard they are normal. (I hope that they are)

So the day after I have the baby I am going into surgery to have my tubes tied. I have to go under with general anesthesia less than 24 hours after I have the baby. I don’t really know how to deal with that yet. I don’t think that anything is going to go bad because I trust the Doctors and Anesthesiologists to perform everything correctly, but there is always that chance. So that is a little nerve racking, but here’s hoping.