SKFoxy

Should we have to take workplace abuse from our boss? I know that the obvious answer is “NO” but what if you have a family that won’t make it if you are not working? It is such a cloudy issue for me. I have been in abusive relationships before and I know what the signs are.

My boss however has become very abusive towards me in the last week or so. He makes me cry almost on a daily basis at least once. Then Monday evening he called me screaming and cursing me out about absolutely nothing that makes sense. He says that he is just stressed and fighting with his wife. (We would be fighting too if my hubby spoke like that to me)

I don’t really know what to do. I can’t quit my family won’t survive if I do but I guess in the mean time I am just looking for something else. Any suggestions??? I guess my point it that he does not pay me enough to deal with his crap.

For example about a week and a half ago he dumped a garbage bag full of receipts and things on my desk and told me to do last years taxes. Nice to know that they were filed on time. I have never done taxes for a corporation before and I am just expected to get them done by the end of the day? He has absolutely unreal expectations. For instance… I had to install and input data from the last 6 months of work into Quickbooks. 6 MONTHS worth and he expected me to have zero questions about what he spent and what on, and to get it done in a matter of hours. Well it took me longer than he thought that it should and he was screaming and yelling then too. Isn’t he lovely.

Well I guess that is enough about that subject I just don’t understand why I end up with such creeps for employers.

Have a good night my hubby and I are going to take the kids to the pond to fish and feed the geese and ducks. My father-in-law wants us to go with him. Could be interesting……… I will let you know how it goes when we get back. I am nervous…….

I am having the most trouble uploading pictures to my site. I don’t know what I am doing wrong but this crap sucks. I have so many wonderful pictures of the baby and things like that, and I just can’t seem to figure it out.

I have hit the add media thing for pictures but is is throwing some error that I just don’t understand. Oh well I guess that is why I married someone in IT. So until I can get him to fix what ever my problem is with this silly thing I will have to go on with no pics. I am very sad about this revalation because I took one of the cutest pics of Brinley this morning.

I have been whining that it is too cold here in Salem, Oregon but as of right now it is 98 degrees. Damn…… I didn’t realize that I could sweat this much. I know that is gross but I feel like I am dying.

I decided that since it was such a nice day that I would go down to a local park and walk with the kids and my cousin and her kids. We thought that we would be slick and let them “burn” off some energy. But two of them got sick because of the heat and the Baby (Brinley) was just miserable. I think that it was a big mistake.

We have an A/C unit for the house but it is not large enough to do any “real” good. It is bringing the temp from almost 90 to just about 80. I wish that we could afford another one but this is what we have to do for now.

Do any of you have any suggestions to keep a new baby cool? I have tried to use a cool wash cloth to keep her cooled off but I am having trouble with things like that because she just got her first cold and ear infection. She is just miserable and I feel so bad for her.

I know that I have other kids and should know what to do for her and them but it is early enough in the year that I am not completely prepared, for all of the heat.

Just since I started this post about 10 min ago the temp has risen to 99 degrees. Well I think that we are going to go out on to the patio and try to play in the kids pool. It’s not much but what can you do……

Have a good day and keep out of the sun.

All things considered I am doing alright, but I sure feel miserable. I have been having really strong contractions, cramping and vomiting all day.  I called the nurse at my doctor’s office because I was unable to keep anything down all day, and of course what did they say? “Go in to the hospital and get checked” So I did  like I was told and they sent me home with an anti nausea pill.

I appreciate the anti nausea pills because I am tired of throwing up and I need to be all rested for Sunday. I was sitting in the hospital room and the nurse comes in to tell me that she ordered my pill, it just so happened that I asked her what kind she ordered and it was one of the one’s that I am allergic to. Nice…… Do they even look at the chart? Sometimes I wonder what the point in having bright red notices that say allergic to on them.

So now I am sitting in my bed eating what seems like everything in site because I am starving. I’m trying to relax and just get some rest, but that seems almost impossible some days. I have so many things that need to be done.

Such as

• Put the laundry away
• Dishes
• Vacuum
• Finish organizing the nursery
• Just clean up in general
• Mop the kitchen

There are just so many random things that I would like to accomplish before Sunday and I have to go to the hospital that I am not sure where to start. So for the moment I am sitting in my bed watching “Super Troopers” in my pajamas stuffing my face. I almost feel guilty, (like I said almost but not quite)

I am afraid that I am going to get up and do all of the things on my to do list and I am going to be warn out before I have to deliver on Sunday, and my body is going to stall out of who knows what. I am just paranoid.  I think that on some level I am just scared of the induction process.  The contractions are so much more sudden, strong, and intense than a natural labor, according to what I have heard and read on the internet. I was induced with the other kids so I don’t even know what a natural “normal” labor is even like. It is not like I haven’t been here before, so I know what I should be expecting I think it is just the fear of the pain. Who knows since every baby, and labor is so different.

So I am having this baby on Sunday! Finally…. I went to the Doctor on Wednesday and I am dilated and effaced enough to induce. I am so excited!!!!! The main reason that we are inducing (other than I am miserable) is because I am showing signs of preeclampsia. The sudden severe swelling, migraines, raising blood pressure, loss of hearing and vision. It’s horrible, and it is painful to say the least because of the swelling.

So Sunday March 23rd, 2008, at 8 am I am going to be going to the hospital and being induced. I hope that all goes well, and I don’t have to have a c-section or anything like that. I was induced with my son and I almost had to have a c- section and I was so scared and delivered normally on the operating table. So I am a little nervous about the whole thing, but it is an excited nervous.

I know that my husband is quite nervous as well. But I think that is because he has been having dreams that I have died or there is something that has happened to the baby during delivery. I must admit I too have had these kinds of dreams but as far as I have heard they are normal. (I hope that they are)

So the day after I have the baby I am going into surgery to have my tubes tied. I have to go under with general anesthesia less than 24 hours after I have the baby. I don’t really know how to deal with that yet. I don’t think that anything is going to go bad because I trust the Doctors and Anesthesiologists to perform everything correctly, but there is always that chance. So that is a little nerve racking, but here’s hoping.