Miserable on a Friday

All things considered I am doing alright, but I sure feel miserable. I have been having really strong contractions, cramping and vomiting all day.  I called the nurse at my doctor’s office because I was unable to keep anything down all day, and of course what did they say? “Go in to the hospital and get checked” So I did  like I was told and they sent me home with an anti nausea pill.

I appreciate the anti nausea pills because I am tired of throwing up and I need to be all rested for Sunday. I was sitting in the hospital room and the nurse comes in to tell me that she ordered my pill, it just so happened that I asked her what kind she ordered and it was one of the one’s that I am allergic to. Nice…… Do they even look at the chart? Sometimes I wonder what the point in having bright red notices that say allergic to on them.

So now I am sitting in my bed eating what seems like everything in site because I am starving. I’m trying to relax and just get some rest, but that seems almost impossible some days. I have so many things that need to be done.

Such as

  • Put the laundry away
  • Dishes
  • Vacuum
  • Finish organizing the nursery
  • Just clean up in general
  • Mop the kitchen

There are just so many random things that I would like to accomplish before Sunday and I have to go to the hospital that I am not sure where to start. So for the moment I am sitting in my bed watching “Super Troopers” in my pajamas stuffing my face. I almost feel guilty, (like I said almost but not quite)

I am afraid that I am going to get up and do all of the things on my to do list and I am going to be warn out before I have to deliver on Sunday, and my body is going to stall out of who knows what. I am just paranoid.  I think that on some level I am just scared of the induction process.  The contractions are so much more sudden, strong, and intense than a natural labor, according to what I have heard and read on the internet. I was induced with the other kids so I don’t even know what a natural “normal” labor is even like. It is not like I haven’t been here before, so I know what I should be expecting I think it is just the fear of the pain. Who knows since every baby, and labor is so different.

Pregnancy Sucks!!!

Well the pregnancy is not that bad it is just the labor part I am having trouble with at the moment. I went to the doctor yesterday and they determined that I am in labor it is just really slow. So I am having mass amounts of contractions and they are not doing hardly anything to get her out. I feel like I am doing all this work and dealing with all of this pain for nothing at the moment.

I never really thought about getting stuck at a certain point in labor but apparently you can. That and this is the first time that I have not been induced so I don’t really know what to expect. The hospital told me that it could be a day (or less) or even a week or two. What kind of crap is that? I didn’t sign up for that. Not that I want my daughter to be born prematurely by any means considering that I am only 36 weeks, but they won’t do anything to help me get unstuck. (For fear of a malpractice suit) I understand that they are afraid that I would sue if there was something that went wrong during the delivery and it was because of the pitocin or what ever they give. Then on the other hand I am far enough along that they won’t give me anything that will stop it or slow it down either. Basically from what I have been told I am just in limbo till she decided to come out or until the 23rd when they will just get it over with.

I am not so sure that I will be able to deal with all of this until the 23rd, neither is my Dr. so he told me to walk, walk, walk , and walk some more, and hopefully that will make my body finish what it has started. Here’s hoping I have been walking so much that I can barely keep my eyes open because I am not sleeping either. (Because of the contractions) What a vicious cycle… Well I am going to try and lay down for a bit, I will keep you posted.