I just realized that I have not posted anything in a while. I just have felt like crap, this pregnancy is taking it’s toll on me physically and mentally.
Physically I just feel so run down, to the point of all I want to do is sleep the days away. I feel like I could sleep all day and all night and then some. I am not sure if it is just that I am due in a couple of weeks or maybe I am just getting rundown. I wish that I could just feel great and be about to have a baby. But I think that is just too much to ask some days.
Mentally I am crying all of the time, having nightmares, I can barely watch a movie with out bursting into tears for some reason. Like for example the movie “Knocked Up” I heard that it was really funny and cute etc. But the only thing that I could think was omg how scary! Watching her go into labor, be alone, break up with her baby daddy, it totally freaked me out. I kept my hubby up all night talking about my insecurities and fears all that good stuff. The next night we tried to watch “Shootem’ Up” because my husband likes all of the different guns etc and my mom said it was a good movie. Lets just say that we made it about 20 min into it and it was a big big mistake at least for me.
I have a Dr. appt tomorrow and I am kind of excited. (My Dr. office called and formally apologized for the Dr that told me to get fixed, and they told me that I didn’t have to see him again.) I am going weekly now to monitor everything. Last Wednesday when I went I was told that I am dilated to about 2 cm. I know what that means!!! Not too much longer. Yay!! I am so excited to see her and hold her in my arms instead of my belly. Don’t get me wrong I am nervous about having another baby to take care of, but I am still really excited.
Well I am still having really bad contractions so I think I am going to go and soak in the tub then hopefully fall asleep for a bit. Have a good one.
My husband and I were having a conversation last night about the movie ratings for children’s films. They are a little off if you ask us.
For example the movie, Ice Age 2 The Meltdown is rated G for general audiences but has the caution that there is “Mild Peril” in the film. Mild peril what is that? Have you ever seen a movie WITH OUT mild peril? I think that by that description even Veggie Tales movies have “Mild Peril”. Don’t get me wrong I really like the Ice Age movies they are cute. Very kid friendly for the most part some of the things that go over the kids heads are really funny. Where were these movies when we were kids and watching oh I don’t know Nightmare on Elm Street? (I still have dreams about the knife fingers coming up through the bed. Shivers) Then there is the KIDS movie, All Dogs Go to Heaven, that is also rated G and pushed on kids via movies and its own 30 min cartoon show. I don’t know if you have ever seen All Dogs Go to Heaven but there is raqueteering, prostitution, murder, drugs, alcohol, theft, gambling, kidnapping and probably several more that are escaping me at the moment. It is one of those times that I want to look at these people that are making up the ratings and say ummm hello what the hell is mild peril? I am not saying that I let those things dictate if my kids get to watch the movie or not. Personally I think that is a parents decision, but wow.
How many movies did we watch that were questionable or just inappropriate. I am sure lots just like I did, not that it makes it right but I think that our children are getting way too sheltered for their own good. Since when is Mild Peril going to scar a child for life? (That was someone else’s argument on it.) I can’t believe how many kids (young adults) these days that are being convicted of murder, and all of these horrendous crimes. I almost think that if they were disciplined the way that we were there wouldn’t be half of the problems. I am not at all suggesting that abusing our children is the way to go but now a days if you even tell your kids that you are going to give them a spanking your kids can call CSD (child protective services) on you and have YOU hauled off to jail.
Enough ranting about that I suppose. My husband did the sweetest thing today. He offered (since I am still feeling under the weather) to take both kids to the mall so that they could play on the little toys things while I rested. I thought that was the sweetest thing. I however decided that I would go with them because I love him and couldn’t bear to have them terrorize him in the mall of all places. One is hard enough in there let alone both. They were surprisingly good though. No tantrums, they both ate a good lunch in the food court, and it went so well I almost wished that I had stayed home. 🙂 I just need a nap.
Speaking of naps my 3 year old decided that he doesn’t need a nap any more. Well is it bad to think that I need his nap? I sometimes wish that he would just pass out some where. (safe obviously) At the moment he is in my bed watching the Scorpion King movie and my little girl is in her bad taking a nap, and my husband is passed out in our chair and a half listening to Shark Tale. So I decided that this would be a good opportunity for me to get my post in for the day.
Anyways I think that I am going to go for the moment so that I can rest on the couch before someone needs my full and undivided attention. Have a good one.