I just realized that I have not posted anything in a while. I just have felt like crap, this pregnancy is taking it’s toll on me physically and mentally.
Physically I just feel so run down, to the point of all I want to do is sleep the days away. I feel like I could sleep all day and all night and then some. I am not sure if it is just that I am due in a couple of weeks or maybe I am just getting rundown. I wish that I could just feel great and be about to have a baby. But I think that is just too much to ask some days.
Mentally I am crying all of the time, having nightmares, I can barely watch a movie with out bursting into tears for some reason. Like for example the movie “Knocked Up” I heard that it was really funny and cute etc. But the only thing that I could think was omg how scary! Watching her go into labor, be alone, break up with her baby daddy, it totally freaked me out. I kept my hubby up all night talking about my insecurities and fears all that good stuff. The next night we tried to watch “Shootem’ Up” because my husband likes all of the different guns etc and my mom said it was a good movie. Lets just say that we made it about 20 min into it and it was a big big mistake at least for me.
I have a Dr. appt tomorrow and I am kind of excited. (My Dr. office called and formally apologized for the Dr that told me to get fixed, and they told me that I didn’t have to see him again.) I am going weekly now to monitor everything. Last Wednesday when I went I was told that I am dilated to about 2 cm. I know what that means!!! Not too much longer. Yay!! I am so excited to see her and hold her in my arms instead of my belly. Don’t get me wrong I am nervous about having another baby to take care of, but I am still really excited.
Well I am still having really bad contractions so I think I am going to go and soak in the tub then hopefully fall asleep for a bit. Have a good one.