So many things to talk about; so many changes

I have been so out of touch lately that I have not even looked at my blog in just over a year it seems like.  There have just been so many things to do and things that I have done.  It has been crazy. I guess that I never thought that life would get so crazy that I wouldn’t work on my blog. I love writing here so much, and I feel really guilty that I have been gone from here for so long.

Well lets give a family update;

Shaun, My dearest husband. He got a new job. (Well in January of 2009) It is so neat, and I couldn’t be more proud of him and the work that he is doing. The company is a very small one in Northern Washington, and he has the ability to work from home which has been a blessing. I believe that there are only 7 people in the entire company. I remember when he started that I was really apprehensive about the change from a salaried person to an hourly wage. But it has all worked out wonderfully. He is finally being appreciated in a way that makes him enjoy his work. which is something that he was missing at his previous employer. This company is a very interesting one, and they do some very unique things which is a positive. The couple that are the owners of this business are deeply religious and very sweet. I do not believe that the wife (Maryann) has a mean bone in her body and is just a wonderful person, cook and mother. I have visited there with Shaun once for a Christmas party, and it was amazing, Just the simplicity of their lives and how at peace they are amongst the chaos that is most urban lives is just amazing. I wish that I could live like that. (sometimes)

However, with this new job have come new challenges as a married couple. Shaun is working from home now in our bedroom/office, so we are together all of the time. Even though we are together so much in the same house, we don’t really see him during the day. Unless he is hungry or is running low on nerd fuel. (Mountain Dew Code Red) I have to say that I really enjoy the time that he gets to spend with me and our children. It is so neat to think that even though he works himself to brain mush some days that he gets to see our children grow and learn things just about as much as I do.  I believe that we are so very fortunate in that regard and they don’t even know it. I guess all children are that way in some aspects. I am glad that they have a dad that is so involved in their lives. If they have a problem, want some Dairy Queen in the middle of the day right around break time or just need a hug from their dad he is always available. I love it, and so do they.

Our oldest child, Alex was asking me why all daddies couldn’t stay home and work. It was a tough sell to explain that there are different jobs around the world and mommies and daddies have to do them. It is just one of those things that he doesn’t realize about. I can’t complain about the comprehension of the workforce at 5 years old though. Lol

On Friday February 5th I have Alex’s preschool conference to discuss his transition into Kindergarten. I have to say that I am kinda nervous about this transition. Since Alex is autistic there are lots of challenges that must be over come on a daily basis and I am afraid that this transition will be quite difficult for him as well as us. For anyone who lives with autism everyday change is not too fun. I am so glad that he has completed a year and a half of preschool. I think that it has created some very wonderful progress for him especially in the area of speech. I can’t believe that just over 2 years ago he had about 20 words and how he has a wonderful vocabulary. Learning new words and pronunciations each day. White is my favorite word that he says now. He was saying wipe instead of white so now when he says it he says WhiTTe, with a ton of emphasis on the T. It’s great.

Our middle child Caitlin just turned 3 a few months ago and is doing very well. She is dang near fully potty trained. (Yay 2 down 1 to go.) It is such a nice feeling not to have to purchase two sizes or types of diapers. We are still keeping her in a pull up for night time and some times during naps. But I can’t really complain. It surely makes a package of pull ups last much longer. I can’t believe some times that she is only three. She is such a well behaved child. For the most part she is very soft spoken and loves everyone as well as everything. I think about what she will become as an adult some times, she is so intelligent like her father that I hope she becomes rocket scientist or cures cancer or something of that nature. But who knows and we will be proud of her no matter what she does or accomplishes. I just hope that it will be something great.

The baby in the family Brinley, boy oh boy is she a handful. I have to say that she keeps all of us on our toes. She like her sister is very smart and she knows it. I know that she is only 22 months old but she is getting herself undressed now (even when I don’t want her to) and she can count to 10. I was in shock the first time that she did it. I do have to say that she is truly my child, very outspoken, loud gosh is she loud and stubborn. But she is also very much her father’s child. She loves him so much that there are days that I am totally jealous because it seems like I am just chopped liver with onions. But I would feel horrible if she didn’t have an incredible relationship with her father. I do know however that she can operate my iPod better and more efficiently, she can operate a computer, send text messages via cell phone, and if it wasn’t for her I would have never discovered how to turn the subtitles on my television. She just hacked the cable box and got me to where I needed to be. I couldn’t believe it. I almost wonder if she will follow in her father’s footsteps and be a developer or something related to computers. She just loves them so much.

We are now living in a beautiful home in Keizer and are out of the flats of West Salem. (thank god) So Shaun has an office/bedroom where he can get some peace while working during the day. Our back yard has a fountain and pond, and we live right with a park right behind us. It is so wonderful and peaceful here. We live on a small dead end street with wonderful neighbors. There are no wild parties, no one is obnoxious or anything. Couldn’t ask for more, especially since we have a large beautiful kitchen with massive amounts of cupboard space and counter tops. The icing on the cake for me was that we have a large bathroom with walk in closet, linen closet as well as a very large SPA TUB!!! How wonderful is that? A spa tub. This house is so perfect for us that I can’t believe that we fell into it so perfectly. The only thing is that we are renting but the owner of the home is a very neat man and has taken care of anything that has come up during our tenancy no matter how small. I love it.

Living in Keizer has been very neat especially that there is Keizer Station so close. So nice in fact that my good friend just moved in across the street. She is expecting her third child in early April so we are enjoying that we are so close and can help one another out with out having to depend on our parents and grandparents. I think that it has helped us both as mothers since we can be so honest with one another about things that are going on in our lives with out fear of judgment from anyone else. It’s nice, and I really enjoy having someone that I can depend on and relate to so close. I am starting to work on her baby shower since she is having her first boy, and her husband says that their son cannot allow her baby boy to wear pink. I suppose that is a valid argument.

Well it is after 11 pm and I should be headed to bed here shortly, so I am going to go and utilize my spa tub so have a good night, and thanks for being patient with me after such a long dead period.

Pregnancy Sucks!!!

Well the pregnancy is not that bad it is just the labor part I am having trouble with at the moment. I went to the doctor yesterday and they determined that I am in labor it is just really slow. So I am having mass amounts of contractions and they are not doing hardly anything to get her out. I feel like I am doing all this work and dealing with all of this pain for nothing at the moment.

I never really thought about getting stuck at a certain point in labor but apparently you can. That and this is the first time that I have not been induced so I don’t really know what to expect. The hospital told me that it could be a day (or less) or even a week or two. What kind of crap is that? I didn’t sign up for that. Not that I want my daughter to be born prematurely by any means considering that I am only 36 weeks, but they won’t do anything to help me get unstuck. (For fear of a malpractice suit) I understand that they are afraid that I would sue if there was something that went wrong during the delivery and it was because of the pitocin or what ever they give. Then on the other hand I am far enough along that they won’t give me anything that will stop it or slow it down either. Basically from what I have been told I am just in limbo till she decided to come out or until the 23rd when they will just get it over with.

I am not so sure that I will be able to deal with all of this until the 23rd, neither is my Dr. so he told me to walk, walk, walk , and walk some more, and hopefully that will make my body finish what it has started. Here’s hoping I have been walking so much that I can barely keep my eyes open because I am not sleeping either. (Because of the contractions) What a vicious cycle… Well I am going to try and lay down for a bit, I will keep you posted.

I haven’t posted in a while so here goes

I just realized that I have not posted anything in a while. I just have felt like crap, this pregnancy is taking it’s toll on me physically and mentally.

Physically I just feel so run down, to the point of all I want to do is sleep the days away. I feel like I could sleep all day and all night and then some. I am not sure if it is just that I am due in a couple of weeks or maybe I am just getting rundown. I wish that I could just feel great and be about to have a baby. But I think that is just too much to ask some days.

Mentally I am crying all of the time, having nightmares, I can barely watch a movie with out bursting into tears for some reason. Like for example the movie “Knocked Up” I heard that it was really funny and cute etc. But the only thing that I could think was omg how scary! Watching her go into labor, be alone, break up with her baby daddy, it totally freaked me out. I kept my hubby up all night talking about my insecurities and fears all that good stuff. The next night we tried to watch “Shootem’ Up” because my husband likes all of the different guns etc and my mom said it was a good movie. Lets just say that we made it about 20 min into it and it was a big big mistake at least for me.

I have a Dr. appt tomorrow and I am kind of excited. (My Dr. office called and formally apologized for the Dr that told me to get fixed, and they told me that I didn’t have to see him again.) I am going weekly now to monitor everything. Last Wednesday when I went I was told that I am dilated to about 2 cm. I know what that means!!! Not too much longer. Yay!! I am so excited to see her and hold her in my arms instead of my belly. Don’t get me wrong I am nervous about having another baby to take care of, but I am still really excited.

Well I am still having really bad contractions so I think I am going to go and soak in the tub then hopefully fall asleep for a bit. Have a good one.

Dr Appointment Today

Why is it what whenever I have a Dr appointment it seems like it is the day that they are running way behind? I sat in the exam room half naked for almost 2 hours waiting for the Dr. The waiting wasn’t the hard part, I had Alex with me. Can you imagine sitting in a room that is TINY with a 3 year old that has absolutely nothing to do? It was awful. I must admit that he was so good in there though. I didn’t have hardly any problems except that he wanted to open the door and / or turn off the light. Oh well I survived. 🙂

The good news about the appointment is that I am dilated to about 2 cm!!! I am excited and ready to be done. It has been decided that I am going to be seeing the Dr. once a week for the remainder of my pregnancy. That and I do not have to see the jerk doctor that told me to get sterilized. (I am still kinda mad about that)

Well I am really tired so I think that I am going to head for bed. The kids went down at 8 and it is already after 9:30 so it is time for me to get some sleep. Have a good night.

Almost a year

Next month my husband Shaun and I will have been officially married for one year. March 18th, 2007 was our wedding day. So I was looking through some pics on the computer and realized 2 things.

First that I don’t have a single picture of myself on my own website and two that I have never mentioned my wedding or anything like that. So I thought that I would put a few pictures up. I also found a good one of my grandpa that I just lost at my wedding so I am going to put that one up as well.


I thought that this was a really neat pic considering that who ever took it got us in the mirror as well.


Me and my dad. Believe it or not he is in a good mood at this point.


I like my daddy can you tell?


Me and Shaun just after the “I do’s” I am finally a Kester and so excited about it.


Just one of me in my red and white dress. I really loved it well I still do. Too bad I probably will never be a size 5 again.


I just liked this picture, and I don’t say that very often about pics of myself.


I need to blow this picture up and crop it down to size because my great grandfather is in this one and you can barely see him.


Our rings. His is a titanium band and mine (my first set on my second set already) was a white gold with a 1/2 carat floating diamond in the middle. I no longer have this set because I was having to have it re rhodiumed all of the time almost every two or three weeks. So I was spending more time with out my wedding set than I did with it. It sucked but the jewler exchanged that set for the set that I have now. I liked the first set so much better but this one I don’t worry about as much. Except that I am afraid I am going to loose my wedding set because I can’t wear it on account of being pregnant and my hands swelling or something. I have heard that lots of women have had to get their bands cut off because their hands swelled up and there was no other way to get the rings off. How terrible!!! I don’t want mine cut in half so I am opting out of wearing them. ( Just for now though. As soon as I can wear them safely again I will be all over that!!! )

I know that this was kind of a random post, I just was thinking about my hubby and our wedding and just a host of other things and this was fun for me. What I need to do is get Shaun to move the photo galleries over to my site from his, so that I don’t have to upload them one at a time. But for now this will suffice until I nag him into submission. ( What else are wives good for? 🙂 )